I don't want this blog to end up being a downer - I'm NOT a downer... at least I don't think I am.
I'm just feeling down right now. And as my personal outlet, it gets shared here.
Bare with me, I assure you I'll change my tune soon enough.
I am feeling incredibly defeated in life right now. There have been days when I just cry and cry and cry.
I don't know if it's my depression creeping back up on me, or if I'm legitimately distraught due to events in my life.
I hate my job - that's no secret.
My 9 month old cat ran away - I feel like the worst mom ever.
I have a major exam in 6 weeks and my current level of defeat makes me feel like this is an insurmountable task.
I feel like I need to do some "me" work, but then there are the stresses of real life - how will I pay for things? everyone will be disappointed in me if I leave my job, defer my exam, or just take a break from life in general.
I feel like I'm between a rock and a hard place and I need a hand getting out of here.